When did you first notice him?
I noticed him noticing me.
I noticed that I liked the feeling that
I wasn’t the only one in the room, unwanted.
And is that when you wanted him?
It’s when I wanted to want him.
It’s when I began considering whether being
With him would be an improvement in my life.
So you went for it?
I wanted to go for it. I wanted to care
Only about myself and what I wanted for a change.
But something got in the way?
I got in my own way.
I’m more afraid of rejection
Than I am of being alone.
That’s a problem, then.
But I do it to myself. I know
What I should do but I
Am not strong enough to do it.