… I would tell you that I’m going to a wedding today that I have been looking forward to all summer, but my anxiety is threatening to ruin it for me.
… I would tell you that I have the intention of giving up alcohol after today, which makes the anticipation of this “last hurrah” as exciting as it is scary.
… I would tell you that all I need is a good time out with some friends, a great reason to celebrate the love of a favorite couple of mine.
… I would tell you, honestly, that as much as I am excited to get dressed up and bling out, the pounding I’ve had in my chest all morning is also making me want to stay home in front of my air conditioner and read blogs and write instead. Because it’s safer here where no one knows me and no one is watching. Because even though I’ve been looking forward to this day, I’ve been worrying about being social with people I really only know through work, and what if my co-workers don’t like the “real me”, whatever that is?
… I would tell you I’m already looking forward to tomorrow, to waking up in a hotel bed, to my Morning Pages and hotel breakfast, to getting back to the work of changing my life, one step at a time, one word at a time, one day at a time.
I’m linking up for the first time with Part Time Monster’s #weekendcoffeeshare & will visit all the other writers and great posts on the flip side.