The Fear-Black Dragon

CheneyMental Health4 Comments

Not my fear-black dragon tattoo, but it's awesome.

There’s this feeling you get when you’re scared, but you aren’t sure if you should be. Have you ever had that feeling? It’s like when you’re heading up the first hill on a roller coaster, that excited anticipation mixed with something that you really don’t want to call fear, because no one likes to admit they’re afraid of something that … Read More

Salt Water

Cheney366skies, Daily Photo, Mental Health, Uncategorized2 Comments

After seeing my lovely therapist this morning, I decided that what I needed more than anything in the entire world was to go to the beach. I just didn’t care that it was January and 31 degrees with a windchill that made it feel much colder. I knew and didn’t care that the wind off the water would probably not … Read More

Still Learning

CheneyCrafts, Daily Photo, Mental Health1 Comment

My mom told me that my dad really wanted me to make him a lap blanket for Christmas. I agreed, because my dad is notoriously hard to shop for besides basic things like Dunkin gift cards (my go-to gift for him) and now, the occasional book as he’s finally picked up reading as a hobby in his fifties. Of course, … Read More

Ready to Believe I’m Ready to Change

CheneyMental Health2 Comments

One of my favorite poets, Nicole Blackman, once wrote: You must change your life. You are never ready. I discovered her poetry in high school, and for some reason I’ve held on to those words for over fifteen years. Every time I think about changing something in my life, in fact, those two lines of poetry spring up from the … Read More

C is for Columbine

CheneyBlogging Challenges, Mental Health7 Comments

On April 20, 1999, two boys left an indelible stamp on the American psyche. Their goal was simple: to blow up their school, Oklahoma-City style, and to leave “a lasting impression on the world.” Their bombs failed, but the ensuing shooting defined a new era of school violence-irrevocably branding every subsequent shooting “another Columbine.” …The result is an astonishing account … Read More

The System is Broken

CheneyMental Health, Rants12 Comments

I’ve been feeling really anxious lately, more worried, more on edge, more depressed. It’s a terrible thing because I do suffer from depression and anxiety and I know that it can present its symptoms in cycles. I’ve been feeling really good and I’ve been off of medication for over a year now, but now I am thinking it’s time to … Read More

Feeling the SAD

CheneyMental Health3 Comments

I’m here somewhere, but I feel half gone now. I think it’s the cold, and the dark, and the winter. You know, I think we all thought it was going to be mild and fly by, nothing to worry about, nothing we’ll remember a few years from now. But it snows a few times a week. Forecasters (as useful and … Read More