Day 1 – Welcome 2013

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Let’s be honest. 2012 pretty much sucked for me. I think back to the beginning of the year, and am shocked to remember how well it started out. I had a blast on New Years Eve, went to an awesome New Years Day brunch at a friends house, and then Brian whisked me off to New York City later in the day so that we could start off the year with a dinner at Yummy Noodle and dessert at a little joint that boasted the best tirimisu in the city (but they were sold out so we got gelato instead.) We have to make our own fun, is something that Brian said to me, a year ago today, and now he’s gone.

It seems that since that day, January 1, 2012, the year proceeded to get more and more thoroughly, and even comically, awful. Things with my old roommate Michelle exploded and by the time we moved out of the house we rented together in June, we had barely spoken for a month. Friendships I had with people fizzled out, I lost interest in my job, my hobbies, my life. My best friend moved across the country, I had a nervous breakdown, I lost my job and I’m unemployed… I could go on, but it’s not really worth it anymore. After all, 2012 did have its one saving grace:

Every year eventually has the courtesy to end.

So from now on, I’m going to look forward and keep reminding myself that as bad as I thought 2012 was, 2002 still holds the award for what the fuck happened, there? Bygones, people. Bygones.

So, what about resolutions?

I used to make new years resolutions, but that whole process never worked out for me. I would stew for days over what the resolutions would be, I would list them out, and then one by one I would watch their downfall and cross them off the list, and the entire cycle of failure to follow through would make me feel terrible and DANG JUST SCREW MAKING RESOLUTIONS!

But I’m trying to have a better attitude and I think it would be beneficial to me to find something to hold myself accountable for throughout an entire year. Here’s what I want to do in 2013:

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Mindfulness is something that I have been working on a lot lately, and it is a big part of my therapy and recovery. Mindfulness is about paying attention, being present and aware, appreciative, grounded, and thoughtful. One of my mindful tasks in 2013 will be daily journaling, and I have been using 750Words to journal for a few months and I am finding it to be an amazing experience.

Being brave is something that I’m working on, too. I suppose everyone might have a different definition of what constitutes being brave, but for me brave means challenging myself. Brave is not only getting out of bed every morning, but also doing something productive and meaningful with the day. Brave means setting boundaries for myself and remembering my worth. Brave is scary, but long overdue.

NaBloPoMo_012013_175x150_ENERGYI am going to be doing a lot of projects in the coming months, and in January I will be participating with BlogHer’s January NaBoPoMo. Believe it or not, I have been successful in completing month long challenges before, and I did it last January as well. 

2012, you sucked. I am totally ready to move on to tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow.

18 Comments on “Day 1 – Welcome 2013”

  1. I got here from Dresden’s Get Connected Blog List and I’m quite grateful I found your blog already, because of this link to the 750words.com site. Over 10 years ago I used to do morning pages for a while and nowadays I think I should start with writing those again, but I never get around to do it. This site might just have been what I needed to get started again.
    All the best wishes to you and for your 2013. I hope it will be a good one for you. I don’t know all that much about mental health issues, but a friend of mine went through something similar a while ago. And I told her what I’m telling you: Admitting you need help and actually getting help for mental health problems is a very, very brave thing to do! Don’t let anyone and especially not your own self tell you otherwise *hugs*

    1. Thank you for the kind words – your friend is right! 750Words has been PRICELESS to me lately. I wish I had some extra cash to donate to them! I am currently on a 13 day streak of writing there so I hope to keep it up throughout the year. Getting the badges is addicting! Thanks for commenting 🙂

  2. I got here from Dresden’s Get Connected Blog List and I’m quite grateful I found your blog already, because of this link to the 750words.com site. Over 10 years ago I used to do morning pages for a while and nowadays I think I should start with writing those again, but I never get around to do it. This site might just have been what I needed to get started again.All the best wishes to you and for your 2013. I hope it will be a good one for you. I don’t know all that much about mental health issues, but a friend of mine went through something similar a while ago. And I told her what I’m telling you: Admitting you need help and actually getting help for mental health problems is a very, very brave thing to do! Don’t let anyone and especially not your own self tell you otherwise *hugs*

    1. Thank you for the kind words – your friend is right! 750Words has been PRICELESS to me lately. I wish I had some extra cash to donate to them! I am currently on a 13 day streak of writing there so I hope to keep it up throughout the year. Getting the badges is addicting! Thanks for commenting 🙂

  3. “2012, you sucked. I am totally ready to move on to tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow.” Yes to this, and yes to being brave and more mindful. When I get most hit with depression is when I’m worrying about dumb things I did 10 years ago, or what’s going to happen a month from now. When I’m present and just dealing with what’s in front of me, I do much better. Doing things that make me feel brave is very energizing. I forget what a charge I get out of it, and choose to be safe instead of brave. Thank you for the reminder of the value in challenge myself to be brave. We’re not even talking bungee jumping, here. Just going to an event where I don’t know everyone is an act of bravery, for me.

    I’m bookmarking your blog. Thank you so much for sharing this.

    1. Thank you Jerimi! I am adding you to my reader as well. We will have to encourage each other to keep going on this psychotic post-a-day adventure!

  4. “2012, you sucked. I am totally ready to move on to tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow.” Yes to this, and yes to being brave and more mindful. When I get most hit with depression is when I’m worrying about dumb things I did 10 years ago, or what’s going to happen a month from now. When I’m present and just dealing with what’s in front of me, I do much better. Doing things that make me feel brave is very energizing. I forget what a charge I get out of it, and choose to be safe instead of brave. Thank you for the reminder of the value in challenge myself to be brave. We’re not even talking bungee jumping, here. Just going to an event where I don’t know everyone is an act of bravery, for me.
    I’m bookmarking your blog. Thank you so much for sharing this.

    1. Thank you Jerimi! I am adding you to my reader as well. We will have to encourage each other to keep going on this psychotic post-a-day adventure!

    1. Thank you very much Ashley – I am actively trying to let it all go and live in the present moment here. Good luck completing NaBloPoMo!

    1. Thank you very much Ashley – I am actively trying to let it all go and live in the present moment here. Good luck completing NaBloPoMo!

  5. I’ve always been told daily journaling is helpful, but in practice I found it to be just a vitriolic rant session. Instead, crafting stories on my blog seems to help a lot more. As I say, I dump the contents of my toxic brain onto the page… It helps. Good luck with 2013!

  6. I’ve always been told daily journaling is helpful, but in practice I found it to be just a vitriolic rant session. Instead, crafting stories on my blog seems to help a lot more. As I say, I dump the contents of my toxic brain onto the page… It helps. Good luck with 2013!

  7. Bye, bye 2012! Sorry it was such a sucky year. That’s a lot for one person to go through in 12 months!

    Thanks for mentioning the 750words.com site, I’m glad it is working out for you!

  8. Bye, bye 2012! Sorry it was such a sucky year. That’s a lot for one person to go through in 12 months!
    Thanks for mentioning the 750words.com site, I’m glad it is working out for you!

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