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  1. cherylz1961
    December 11, 2012 @ 6:52 pm

    Hello,
    I am so sorry you are feeling like you are in a dark pit. I have been there and I know it is an awful place. I would like to throw you a rope by saying I care and I have said a prayer for you today. I hope tomorrow is better.

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    • Cheney
      December 11, 2012 @ 7:45 pm

      Thank you very much.

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  2. Russell Bradley
    December 11, 2012 @ 7:26 pm

    Congratulations my Friend you have found that you have zero interest in the world as you know it.
    If you were asked to provide fuel for a fire to burn , there would be nothing inside you,
    That I will tell you is an excellent place to start.
    Although you do not realise it. You have just asked yourself one kick ass question. And that is what is the point of all this B.S.
    The horses of desire and personal interest that once pulled you along have stopped.

    Wow. You are about to experience knowing that what you previously thought was the only way of life, is not. That is when you congratulate your self for having recognised that your symptoms are a rejection of the mad world we all live in. You are looking for purpose a way to deal with the external world.
    Be kind to yourself because you just hit a big question that knocks every one over in this way.
    Depression is the first part. Then a gap appears from feeling like you have lost it or are going to lose it mentally and emotionally. Too put it short my friend you are more than your job , more than the limited idea’s around you at the moment. So be kind to yourself and allow the new questioning life to bring you to consciousness.

    Russell

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    • Cheney
      December 11, 2012 @ 7:50 pm

      I have read your comment over and over again, and I think – YES. I am hoping that everything you say is true, and I am trying so hard to be kind to myself and put myself first but that has been really hard to do, incredibly hard to let go of the guilt. But, thank you so much.

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      • Russell Bradley
        December 11, 2012 @ 2:58 pm

        yes the guilt causes anger first to attack others and then to attack ones self.the guilt all sits on fear. thats one of the questions why and what am i fearing. be honest its a prosess so be kind to your self.

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