On Gratefulness, Generosity, and Pride

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“A fight is going on inside me,” said an old man to his son. “It is a terrible fight between two wolves. One wolf is evil. He is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other wolf is good. he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you.”

The son thought about it for a minute and then asked, “Which wolf will win?”

The old man replied simply, “The one you feed.”

Wendy Mass (Jeremy Fink and the Meaning of Life)

Someone did something for me today that was so selfless and generous, it brought me instantly to tears.

Why did I burst into tears when someone did something amazing and wonderful giving for me?

Sadly, simply because it just happens far too infrequently in life. I was shocked and surprised to be reminded that there were still good, generous, thoughtful, compassionate people in the world.

I had no idea that I had an angel in my midst.

I am beyond words, and too humbled to even share the specifics of things.

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But know this:

It’s way too easy to look at the bad things in life and focus on them, to focus on the negative side of things and then place blame for them. Whether you blame other people for your problems and carry unnecessary resentment or you blame yourself and then carry thoughts of self-hatred – there comes a time when you have to face reality, and place the blame aside, because it does no good for anyone.

Sometimes you just need help, and no matter how it makes you feel – ashamed, maybe pitied, totally forlorn – you have to just take the help.

Because in the end you’re crying because you are just so incredibly grateful, and humbled, and cared for, and KNOWN.

So, yeah. I have to stop looking on the dark side of things. I have to stop being so hard on myself. People tell me that all the time.

I have to feed the correct wolf, is what I’m saying. We all do.

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