The Fear-Black Dragon

CheneyMental Health4 Comments

Not my fear-black dragon tattoo, but it's awesome.

There’s this feeling you get when you’re scared, but you aren’t sure if you should be. Have you ever had that feeling? It’s like when you’re heading up the first hill on a roller coaster, that excited anticipation mixed with something that you really don’t want to call fear, because no one likes to admit they’re afraid of something that … Read More

Salt Water

Cheney366skies, Daily Photo, Mental Health, Uncategorized2 Comments

After seeing my lovely therapist this morning, I decided that what I needed more than anything in the entire world was to go to the beach. I just didn’t care that it was January and 31 degrees with a windchill that made it feel much colder. I knew and didn’t care that the wind off the water would probably not … Read More

Still Learning

CheneyCrafts, Daily Photo, Mental Health1 Comment

My mom told me that my dad really wanted me to make him a lap blanket for Christmas. I agreed, because my dad is notoriously hard to shop for besides basic things like Dunkin gift cards (my go-to gift for him) and now, the occasional book as he’s finally picked up reading as a hobby in his fifties. Of course, … Read More

If You Love What You Do

CheneyLife Stories, Writing Challenges3 Comments

I got in trouble at work again this week and now I’m terrified that I’m going to be fired. I gave my boss an attitude. Again. I didn’t mean to. I’m always sorry, because I never mean to, I swear (and swore to him), but saying sorry doesn’t help in this situation, and now I’m facing consequences. He’s cut my … Read More

C is for Columbine

CheneyBlogging Challenges, Mental Health7 Comments

On April 20, 1999, two boys left an indelible stamp on the American psyche. Their goal was simple: to blow up their school, Oklahoma-City style, and to leave “a lasting impression on the world.” Their bombs failed, but the ensuing shooting defined a new era of school violence-irrevocably branding every subsequent shooting “another Columbine.” …The result is an astonishing account … Read More

The System is Broken

CheneyMental Health, Rants12 Comments

I’ve been feeling really anxious lately, more worried, more on edge, more depressed. It’s a terrible thing because I do suffer from depression and anxiety and I know that it can present its symptoms in cycles. I’ve been feeling really good and I’ve been off of medication for over a year now, but now I am thinking it’s time to … Read More

Anniversaries 

CheneyRants0 Comments

Today my parents are celebrating their 22nd wedding anniversary.  My grandparents will be celebrating their 58th wedding anniversary tomorrow.  I have been off my depression/anxiety meds for one year today.  And now it’s been exactly seven years. That’s a whole hell of a lot of stuff to celebrate, and mourn, and ponder over.  And my boss humiliated me infront of … Read More