Pensive

CheneyBlogging Challenges, On Writing3 Comments

Lately I’ve been freaking out about not writing. More broadly, I’ve been freaking out about how I feel that I am adrift, directionless. I don’t see a path for my future from where I’m at now, and I am honestly not sure how I am going to get there, or anywhere, when I am stuck in this funk of feeling … Read More

Ready to Believe I’m Ready to Change

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One of my favorite poets, Nicole Blackman, once wrote: You must change your life. You are never ready. I discovered her poetry in high school, and for some reason I’ve held on to those words for over fifteen years. Every time I think about changing something in my life, in fact, those two lines of poetry spring up from the … Read More

Day 46 – Depression Lies?

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Depression lies. That’s what Jenny The Bloggess said, and I never really understood what she means by that until now. You know, for years, I didn’t believe in depression? Honestly. I literally didn’t believe it was a real thing. I was one of those ignorant people, totally ignorant! and I really thought that people who said they were depressed were … Read More

Day 22 – Just Write. Right?

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Just write. That’s the idea, huh? I’ve believed for a pretty long time that if I just write, if I just keep writing, things will come to me. Things that I want to come to me – like opportunity and recognition and awards – and things that are perhaps unpleasant but that I need to have come to me anyway, … Read More